I had been summoned to one of the smaller meeting rooms to meet with my specialist. When I arrived, the specialist was already there. That wasn’t normal protocol. The specialist was never in the before room me.
I felt uncomfortable, my hands perspiring again. The specialist had a real talent for making me feel on edge. I wonder if that’s why she was chosen to do the job in the first place.
I tried not to stare at the speciailist who I could feel was staring across the room at me. I must have looked ridiculous standing in the doorway like some idiot child.
“XN2903, come in, shut the door and sit down,” she said in a stern voice.
I walked into the room and did as she requested
Our recruit group was now seven down from 10. Two members of the group had left (that’s what we were told) and one other, Reena was missing. After Reena’s disappearance, dynamics within the group shifted dramatically. People whom I had once considered hostile were now quite amiable. Everyone else seemed to be getting along and there was a lot less tension in the air. Everyone seemed happier… well, everyone but me.
It felt almost hypocritical to feel unsatisfied after admitting how things were at the beginning. Everything I wanted at the Academy seemed to be going my way – recruits were friendlier, I had passed every test with flying colours and my future looked to be on track for the very first time.
But something wasn’t quite right.
Reena’s disappearance was making me feel even more vulnerable. As I looked around the room, everyone seemed to be both innocent and guilty. It could have been any one of the other recruits. The fact that someone else had exactly the same agenda as I did… it just doesn’t sit right with me.
The alternative made me feel even more insecure. Could someone be reading my thoughts? It wouldn’t surprise me if a force sensitive within the group was assigned to read our thoughts and report back to our mentors. Nobody would know until it was too late. I’ve never heard of anyone being able to unthink something or erase a thought.
I needed to keep my confidence up for just a little while longer. The last thing I needed right now was to bring unwanted attention to myself. I need to focus all my energy on what lay ahead.
Journal Entry 04
I think the others suspect me. I can hear their whispers go silent when I enter the room. Despite that, I feel better than I have in months. My confidence has returned and I’m coming top of the class in all disciplines.
It seems as though Reena’s disappearance has paved the way for my success.
I’d like to shake the hand or hands of whomever it was that got rid of Reena, because life at the academy has never been better.