I dunno what’s going on. Writing has never been something I did for the sake of it. I’ve always felt that my feelings are the fuel that drives me to write but every time I try to write I just don’t feel much of anything apart from when I’m writing about not being able to write! It even sounds silly when I read it back to myself. I mentioned in a previous post that I was going to find that ‘flow’ again. Well, I did spend some time editing and updating my posts for Tumblr only to find that I had misplaced parts of the story so I’ve had to adjust the other pieces to fit in around the new order of events. Whilst this seems like it could be a move backwards, it might just be the thing I need to get my character past this little ditch she is always falling into.
This is going to be short and sound a little harsh but sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy at work. I don’t know why I do this but I do. The stupid thing is I actually find it annoying and wish I didn’t do it but whenever I see people pissing about instead of working, I genuinely feel annoyed. Don’t get me wrong, if there’s nothing to do and everything is up to date, fair enough. But when I know there is work to do and people muck around it just makes me want to walk straight back into the management role I walked away from just so I could ask them what they were doing.
Is that bad? I kinda feel it is a little.
This feeling also goes hand in hand with absenteeism. Last week a colleague of mine went drinking and called in sick the next day. I was told to tell the manager about it but I didn’t. I see people taking sickies all the time when they’re not sick. I wasn’t going to betray my colleague but at the same time I felt disappointed by what my colleague did.
I know I shouldn’t care but I do and I’m not quite sure how to not care like everyone else. It makes me feel like I’m a bit of a freak to be honest…
I’m going to put it down to my strict German upbringing and leave it at that. It’s trivial I know but it’s who I am. I don’t know how to change it.
As I was editing my article I was thinking that Grammarly is freaking awesome and I wondered how many other writers out there use it? I am a relatively new user of Grammarly but I can already see the benefits in my work. It’s really cool to check on your Grammarly stats and see how much you’re improving as well.
For now, I’m using the free version which is great but I’m thinking about upgrading. Does anyone out there use the upgraded version and if so, how are you finding the upgraded version compared to the free version? I’d be keen for any feedback!