I haven’t written anything in the last few days and I have been painfully aware of this fact. But each and every time I attempt to write something, it just doesn’t seem like the right place for me to express myself and I cease up and end up doing nothing at all. This blog is the SWTOR/Star Wars website I’ve always wanted but I can’t use it when I feel the need to and I have so many thoughts I have to work through.To put a star wars spin on things, just like Rey and Kylo Ren, I need “Balance” in my (writing) life so I can stop feeling frustrated at myself and at certain aspects of my life in general.
On the writing side of things, I’ve started writing poetry again and I have revisited some of the short stories I have been writing on and off for the past six years. Some are even older than that. It’s funny reading over some of these short stories and poems. I often wonder about the inspiration I’ve used over the years to tell these stories and write these poems. I feel like I may have squandered some of that inspiration away carelessly and now I am being punished for wasting it.
Writing, for me anyway, is a living thing. Just like any living thing, it thrives with attention, care and nurturing and will wither away and eventually die without these things. For now, I am somewhere in-between; far enough away from withering and dying not to worry but still close enough to feel like I’m screwing things up.
I need someone to show me my place in all this… I need help.
Readers, if there are any of you out there, what would you suggest? Should I start another (side) blog to this one? Comments as always, are welcome.
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Write what’s in your heart, and write for yourself, not for anyone else. If it’s from your heart, it will be real. Don’t worry if you think it’s disorganized, or that it doesn’t fit in, or anything else. The important thing is that you write, and that it’s real.
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Thank-you for taking the time to comment and for these words of wisdom 🙂 I’ll stick at it and continue writing here and I’ll always strive to write from the heart 🙂
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I wouldn’t call myself wise haha but that’s something that has helped me. If you try and write to please others, it can distract you and dilute your writing. If you do it first and foremost for yourself, you get more joy out of it and will probably put out better material.
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I think the majority of the SWTOR content I write for the blog is primarily for myself but it would be nice to know that other SWTOR/Star Wars fans are getting something out of it too 🙂 I’m still working on the whole Social Media thing trying to put myself out “there” and for my writing to be seen but I don’t expect hundreds of people to suddenly start following me. I’ve been playing the social media game for a little while now and the one thing that has become overly clear to me is you get out of it exactly what you put in. It’s just like anything else in that sense, really. Nothing that’s worth it is ever easy 🙂
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I’m pretty new to the scene myself as well. And while I haven’t played SWTOR (only because single player is more my thing), I am a huge Star Wars fan. So I’ll happily read hat you write! Best of luck to you!
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Thank you 🙂 and to you!
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