I am thinking of abandoning this blog…

This blog has been a special place for me to blog about life in general and, of course, about Star Wars. But I haven’t been updating the blog as often as I’d like and that’s mostly because I just don’t feel this blog is going anywhere. I suppose I’ve lost direction. My other social media accounts are all doing relatively well, but my blog has always struggled. I have come to face some hard facts about myself as a result.

Maybe I am not as good at writing as I thought? Perhaps my animation isn’t really all that entertaining. Maybe I am actually quite a boring person, so why would I expect anyone to follow me? Maybe people just don’t care all that much.

As hurtful as these things are to admit, I think that perhaps they are right. Am I defeatist in feeling this way? I don’t think so. I compare my blog every now and then to other people who haven’t been blogging as long as I have, and they are all doing much better than I am with their communities. And some of them don’t blog every day and don’t do blog guest posts or any of those things I see a lot of bloggers doing.

When I created this blog, I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with it. I knew that I wanted a space for my writing, I guess, but I never imagined I would even be good enough to animate something or create something. It seems those skills are not really what WordPress readers care about? I don’t really know. People say “just blog for yourself, don’t worry about the follower count,” but blogging for myself just seems so aimless and probably just another waste of someone else’s time.

Perhaps I just spread myself too thin with all the other commitments I have and I have lost the will to blog here. If I can think of a reason why I feel this way I think it’s probably to do with Star Wars in general and the fandom. I just don’t really feel it any more.

The one thing I still want to do, however, is pursuing the goals I set out to pursue mentioned in an earlier blog post.

I guess I have some soul searching to do…

23 thoughts on “I am thinking of abandoning this blog…

    1. Yeah, I think it’s a culmination of a few things, I never was very good at “new beginnings” as much as I try to be. I just don’t like to see things stagnate and that’s kind of how I feel about it right now. Thanks for your kind words πŸ™‚

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  1. Examine the facts: You said your other social media accounts are doing well so I wouldn’t put the blame on your shoulders. WordPress is a challenging place to get your name out and despite all the efforts, I think it takes a lot of time and patience to achieve the following one would like. It isn’t exactly the same thing but I do know some youtubers get overnight success, others take years to build up their fanbase.

    How about giving yourself another month on WordPress to see if your perspective changes? If it isn’t satisfying for you, then you can close the account and move onto other venues. I can imagine how frustrating it is to work hard on artwork (or writing) and post it, only to have one or two views. But realizing that the internet is a big place and we’re all competing for some acknowledgement, I hope you find your suitable venue in time. Good luck!

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    1. Ah thank you πŸ˜„ I think your suggestion is a good one. I’m not usually the type of person that makes rash decisions. I’ll sit on it for a while and see how I feel in a few days. But yes, it’s true that I seem to be seeing a lot of growth on my Instagram and Pinterest accounts, and even my Twitter account which I don’t use often has 4.9 I followers. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong ☹

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      1. I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong, it’s more a matter of which websites are more effective when interacting with other people. I notice you do create much visual art so that’s probably easier and faster for people to digest, hence the success on Instagram and Pinterest. Whereas writing something takes more time for people to read and get through. I know, I write a lot on my blog too and would like to get more readers and comments.

        Also bear in mind in this date and age, everyone’s online and trying find new competing ways to make themselves known. Trying to make their page or youtube channel stand out from others. If 1-2 other websites get you more growth, perhaps that’s a good place to focus your interests. And then later in the future, you can decide to expand your presence online.

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      2. Yeah that sounds like great advice, thank you. I just find it hard to admit defeat I guess. I’m not the type of person to walk away when things get tough. But I also know that there are times when you have to admit to yourself when something’s not working and walk away. I’ve actually just written another blog post which kind of sums up the direction I’ve chosen to take πŸ˜„

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      1. Thank you πŸ™‚ No, I am actually writing more than ever! But I seem to be spending more and more of my “writing time” editing, which results in fewer (but hopefully better) posts.

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      2. Occasionally I submit pieces to writing contests and submission calls, but other than that, everything is here on WordPress. I know it sounds crazy, but for short stories, it actually takes me two or three months of working on a piece before I feel comfortable enough to share it.

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      3. Thank you for sharing that πŸ™‚ Let me tell you something you might find funny, I think I’ve shared only a very small amount of my actual writing on this blog. I have an Ever note account full of short stories plus a folder somewhere on my hard drive filled to the brim with stories and I have never published an entire one anywhere πŸ˜‚ I seem to be too afraid of what people will say to publish any of my writing. I’ve blogged little snippets and that’s it so I know exactly how you feel. You’re doing a lot better than I am πŸ™‚

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      4. You should share some of your stories! It is scary putting yourself out there. I definitely get nervous every time I post something because I don’t know if anyone will like it. But I have mostly gotten over the fear of publishing by reminding myself that if I am satisfied with my creation, my happiness is not dependent on what anyone else says.

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      5. I totally agree with you. It shouldn’t matter but it does. I am just a big old scaredy cat. I know that I’ll never grow as a fiction writer if I don’t start publishing the stuff I write, but everytime I try I just stop dead in my tracks and then distract myself lol. I actually think this is some form of writer’s block just without the not writing part. I write stuff, I just don’t publish it.

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      6. If you have time, you should check out a book called Finish, by Jon Acuff. It has some really great advice on how to identify and finish your goals. It’s actually one of the main factors that helped me start writing on this website! Just a suggestion πŸ™‚

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      7. “But I seem to be spending more and more of my β€œwriting time” editing, which results in fewer (but hopefully better) posts.”

        Ah, how I do relate to that situation! Time flies faster when editing work for me, trying to modify and improve my words. But I think it is worth it, providing quality over quantity work.

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