Sometimes you get those days or weeks when nothing can help you feel any better. For me, that’s the beginning of a depressive state. That is what I am in right now. I feel like there are too many things to deal with at once. It all started last Friday – my partner was involved in a car accident. Nobody was hurt, but it has impacted our life a lot more than anticipated. Even though we are homebodies and don’t go out a lot, we miss having the car a great deal. Waiting for all the insurance crap to sort itself out is painstakingly slow, even with my partner being proactive about it. Our car could get written off entirely, and then we will have to look at a huge unplanned expense to buy a new car.
Yesterday, our team was basically told that management is restructuring again. For those of you who know me for a while, you’ll know that this happened once before several years ago. Well, they’re doing it again.
So now I have two huge things on my mind, and I feel numb like I don’t want to do anything.
I put together a list of all my options today, and I have a few. I also think this is a huge SIGN telling me that this time, I should get out and concentrate on the career I want, which is to go back to freelancing. That was the plan, and I thought I had more time, but it looks like I don’t.
Anyway, enough of the ranting. I haven’t felt like blogging for a few days, which is why I haven’t, I guess. I don’t feel like writing at all, and coming from me, that’s huge. I hate sounding like a downer because I am normally a pretty happy person. But even happy people get down about life and situations outside of their control. I can control how I respond to these changes, and that will be my next focus when I feel better, which I hope is soon.
I’ll keep you all posted, and I hope you are all having a good week!
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