I’ve finally broken my writing streak which is bad because I made a promise to myself to write every day. That was my promise to who I was, and now I am moving into a different phase of my creative life, and I feel it’s time to set new goals as well. That’s not an excuse. I’ve acknowledged the broken promise, but I feel less guilty about it because I’ve transitioned into something I think is even better. Continue reading → I’ve neglected my blog a little but I’m filling that time with great things
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If you were wondering about the title, yes I used the Star Wars quote for Rey when she first begins her journey to become a Jedi like Luke Skywalker. Unlike Rey, this is real life and without a doubt is more than likely going to be a lot more hard work, but I’m good with that.
I have a day off from work today, so I’m using it to scour the internet for free design courses worthy of my time. Time is something that alludes us until we realise we don’t have enough of it! I don’t have a lot of free time, and what free time I do have I’ll be using to upskill myself, and I’m really serious about this (for once).
So the other day I mentioned I was looking at some online courses at the local design school called YooBee. Well, that kind of fell through when I saw their fees. It’s not that I don’t want to spend any money on upskilling, it’s just that I am sure there are other options available before I start pulling out the credit card. If I can’t find something I want that way, I’ll revisit the idea of YooBee and spending money to learn.
I’ve decided that along with learning how to draw, I need to fill the gaps in my knowledge of Photoshop and After Effects. Once I’ve done that, I might focus on InDesign and possibly Illustrator so that I have an array of different tools to use should I need to.
Once I’ve done that, I’m going to focus on Graphic Design basics and go from there. This sounds like a good plan but I’m leaving room for it to change should I need to change it for whatever reason.
I briefly discussed leaving work to pursue Graphic Design full time and my partner was OK with it. While the idea seems straight forward, it really isn’t. I don’t want to have to rely on my partner for everything, and if I’m studying, it means I’ll be eligible for financial support, but it’ll be a lot less than what I’m earning in my current job. That’s a problem for me, and if I can’t resolve it, I’ll need a plan B.
And the team will be whittled down even further. But here’s the thing, we are hiring two new people, so why would we be restructuring again? The TL said not to worry because it “might” not happen.
It’s made me feel nervous all over again 😥
Last night I did something I haven’t done in a while and I walked away from my PC and did well, nothing. This is very unlike me. I am usually bursting with creativity at night, but last night I felt so unmotivated. I don’t like getting into slumps like this. Sometimes these “slumps”can last a long time… I am still writing though 😊
Today I awoke to a nation mourning the loss of their loved ones as a result of yesterday’s massacre in Christchurch. I initially blogged about this yesterday when I first heard about it. Since then I have read multiple newspaper articles and witnessed the live stream of the shooter. “Why would I want to watch that?” you might ask. I needed to see it with my own eyes. I wanted to see exactly what those animals did. I call them “animals” because to me, that’s what they are. In fact, animals are better. These killers are sub-human, whatever the furthest thing away from a human is, that is what they are.
I watched the video because I needed to understand why this happened. But it didn’t free me from the anger I feel towards the shooters or the sadness for the victims and their families. It didn’t do a thing for me other than helped me realise that no matter where you live in the world, even if it’s “God’s Zone,” violence has no boundaries, violence doesn’t recognise your colour, your ethnicity or your age. It can happen anywhere at any time to anyone.
There are all sorts of headlines following the incident. I think now I understand the phrase “If it bleeds, it leads”. People the world over seem to be attracted to violence and destruction. I can’t even explain how or why this is, it just is. I also didn’t know that there were multiple mosque shootings and even people outside on the street were gunned down by this maniac and his group.
Leaders from other countries are offering their condolences to the New Zealand families affected by this tragedy. Even Donald Trump had something to say. Yesterday’s massacre also taught me that when a nation grieves, the world listens and grieves with them. At least that is one positive thing to come out of this tragic incident. I’ll try and hold onto that today.
I’m sorry readers, I normally wouldn’t blog about things like this but because this happened in my country, I feel I need to say something about it. Continue reading → Christchurch Shooting – Gunman Live Streams Mosque shooting