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Do you have a personal mantra that you try to follow?

I blogged about having a personal “mantra” last month as part of a discussion I was actually having with myself on what I want to do and where I want to go in my life.

No joke, those questions are probably some of the hardest questions I’ve ever had to answer, and I don’t think I’ve been able to answer them yet – I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to really. I have a rough idea of what I want to do, but it hasn’t been an easy road, and it’ll only get more challenging before I’m in a place where I will feel good about myself.

As I was reading, I came across the above phrase, which was actually pretty close to what I think I was trying to express. Although, if you had asked me that same question six years ago, I would have had a very different answer.

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Is’nt it funny how time can change your entire perspective on life and even your own opinion of yourself and your values. I know mine have taken a drastic turn. I am usually the type of person that had never doubted where I was going or what I was going to do when I got there. Today, I am not as confident of either of those things.

What about you? Have you ever had an experience in your life so profound that it changed your outlook or your views on life entirely? I suppose that sounds kind of dramatic, but it really isn’t. I don’t believe you can really go through life without hitting significant obstacles in the road. Have you ever had one of these and if so, what did you do to get over that obstacle? Do you live by a specific “code” or mantra or something similar that you aspire to?

I’ve been thinking about this website and the reason I started it in the first place. And I see this website as a canvas of sorts, an artwork that is ever-changing and evolving as I do. That said, there is a part of me that is holding onto the writer within, the teenager that wrote and wrote until her hand went numb, the freelance journalist that never thought she could get a byline and that person is waiting for a chance to shine again.

So along with my other creative endeavours, I want to write more. I need to feed that monster clawing under my skin.

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Frustrations! I changed my mind about the next tutorial because…

I was really frustrated because I didn’t feel like working in Illustrator today when I got home, and then I mucked around for an hour on Pinterest and suddenly decided I wanted to make something!

When I finally found a tutorial I wanted to do, the stupid “assets” used to create the image I wanted weren’t free stock photos and sorry but I’m not paying for random stock photos I’ll probably never use again.

So what did I learn from this experience? 1. Don’t waste time if you’re supposed to be creating something, create. 2. Don’t rely on assets in tutorials (which I should have learned from my nightmarish experience on this tutorial and 3. Half your time is spent looking for assets (which shouldn’t take all that long but I’m fussy and particular).

I ended up not doing anything at all because the tutorial was specific to the image and I couldn’t find another image that was close enough to use…

I feel like I need to rage lol… and I won’t be making anything today. So I am going to go and watch a movie that’ll hopefully help to forget that I just broke my “edit a day” promise to myself 😞

But here is one of the earliest animations I did when I first started showcasing them on my blog – and it’s still one of my favourite Star Wars animations. This makes me feel a little better…

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Imitation is the sincerest form of disrespect

I saw this while I was pinning pins on Pinterest and it struck a chord with me, especially since I do this very thing!

Am I being disrespectful to the artists I admire and the artists that inspire me by using their work or methods to create?

I find this statement is the very opposite of what I try to do with my creations. I feel quite incensed by this actually. I am at work right now and can only post this really quickly but I’d love to hear your thoughts, even if you agree 😁

I’ve been sick…

Not a big deal but my partner and I both experienced food poisoning on the weekend and it hit me really bad. I was throwing up and running to the loo off and on for a 48 hour period and I’ve barely eaten anything. I had some toast this morning and I’m starting to feel hungry again but my stomach still feels really tender.

So I haven’t updated social media or my blog for a few days. Hopefully, I can get back to edits again tonight 😊

I’ve neglected my blog a little but I’m filling that time with great things

I’ve finally broken my writing streak which is bad because I made a promise to myself to write every day. That was my promise to who I was, and now I am moving into a different phase of my creative life, and I feel it’s time to set new goals as well. That’s not an excuse. I’ve acknowledged the broken promise, but I feel less guilty about it because I’ve transitioned into something I think is even better. Continue reading → I’ve neglected my blog a little but I’m filling that time with great things

Protected: It’s my birthday, and I’ll cry if I want to…

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Right now…

Right now I feel like standing up and yelling at the top of my voice. I want to walk towards the door and never come back to this awful place. I have absolutely no reason to want to be here anymore. Anything good that I felt for this place died some time ago. I’m only here because my pride and my stubbornness refuse to let me leave.