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I haven’t written poetry for a long time. While that may not seem like a good thing, my bouts of poetry writing would only occur when things in my life had taken a turn for the worst.
Poetry was my release. It was the light at the end of a dark and winding tunnel. I can’t remember when I first started regularly writing poetry. I think it may have been just after my father had passed away. The pain I felt seemed to engulf every essence of my being until all that remained was a twisted, empty shell. It was bad. I don’t know what would or could have happened if I wasn’t able to write. I feel blessed that I have a way of getting through the pain. Some people don’t have anything or anyone to turn to and I feel bad for them.
I think some of my best poetry is written from a dark place. But now that I feel a lot happier as a person, I can’t seem to channel the right energy to write. It’s as if the pain has an energy all of its own. I wrote my very first piece today. It came from a much lighter, happier place. It’s okay, I guess. I’m just happy to be a poet once more. I think of it as one of the greatest gifts I could ever give myself.
I don’t think I have mentioned here before that I used to be a freelance writer in a previous life. I haven’t done any freelance writing for some time. But my passion for writing has always been there through the dark and the light sides of my journey.
The other day I noticed an online notification for a website I frequent looking for contributors. And I decided to apply. Today I received a response advising that my application had been reviewed and they were happy to offer me a contributor’s position. I’m really looking forward to getting back “in the game” and seeing where this new opportunity will take me but most importantly, I’ll be writing again. I’ll update with more info once I have more to tell 😊
After a rather overly excited moment at the computer, I’ve managed to compose myself so I can write about the new Star Wars The Last Jedi trailer. If you’ve seen the trailer, you’ll know what I’m talking about. The trailer is just amazing! That said, some of my fellow Star Wars friends are refusing to watch it because they don’t want to see any potential movie spoilers. This situation makes it harder for me to get in touch with my inner fangirl.
I have a friend who is also totally devoted to Star Wars except we celebrate our fandom quite differently. He refuses to watch any footage prior to seeing a new film and will refuse to speak of it at all. I respect his decision but I don’t entirely understand it. I’ve never been one to worry about spoilers, in fact, I welcome them, and I have had to practice serious restraint when writing reviews so I don’t reveal anything to my audience. This is a lot harder to do than you might think, especially when you’re writing about something you’re passionate about. It’s like you can see this amazing thing and you want to celebrate this amazing thing but you cannot, under any circumstances, discuss the real reason or reasons why. You can skirt around the topic all you like and maybe even write a very small teaser or two but you can never cross the line into spoiler territory. This is the (mostly) unspoken rule of an entertainment writer.
My argument is that it’s just so much fun to think about and talk about the “what ifs?” I love watching fan made video clips and watching other fans celebrate their fandom with the world. I enjoy thinking about and writing about what could happen in The Last Jedi because it’s fun and exciting to do. If you follow the star wars tag on Tumblr, you’ll be exposed to this type of content from fans who aren’t afraid to let their minds wander through all the possibilities. I believe it’s one of those things that only a true fan could really understand. So I’m fine with those people who don’t want to talk about how exciting the new trailer is, but in my world, that’s the very reason behind why I do what I do and what it means to be a true Star Wars fan.
Lately, I’ve felt somewhat overwhelmed by social media. It’s become a focus of mine to check and see if I’ve had any new follows, likes, reblogs etc. This is one reason I didn’t really want to return to social media in the way that I have because it soon takes over. What’s important to me is that I write period. But now I feel almost crippled by the social media feedback and instead of writing five pieces a day, I haven’t been able to write anything. I read on some blog that consistency is one thing you need if you want social media to work for you. Consistency is also important when you’re blogging. How many potential followers have I missed out on because I didn’t blog for a day or three? Probably a few, I would think. How many blogs have you unfollowed because the blog wasn’t updated on a semi-regular basis? Probably a few, right? I am sure that once I’ve gained a loyal audience and I’m connecting with my readers on a regular basis, followers and likes and reblogs will become a lot less important. At that point, you would like to think that even if you don’t blog for a day, your loyal followers won’t care as long as you blog at some point.
Are these issues even important? I don’t know, I suppose if I want to continue gaining an audience, I need to rely on social media to get myself “out there”. But for right now, I hate it. I actually feel quite a bit of contempt for social media and everything it stands for.
It could just be me being a slow poke and only just finding out about the #hashtag usage in Pinterest. But I want to make sure nobody else misses out on this little tidbit of powerful information. So I have a Pinterest account (shameless plug) which I recently started and since I’ve read a bit about the power of social media, I discovered that yes, you can use hashtags to find pins via Pinterest just like you would with Twitter or Tumblr. I just wanted to confirm that this is the case and from my most recent experiences so far, it works! I don’t have very many followers on Pinterest to being with but since I started using hashtags (yesterday), I’ve had four new followers. Considering I only have 104, statistically speaking, that’s a few more followers than I was getting thanks to using hashtags with my pins. It could also just be a matter of coincidence which I have also considered, but I’ll continue to use hashtags going forward and I’ll compare my follower count now vs then to confirm findings at a later date.
The fanfic I am currently writing has three main characters. The character telling the story is female and somehow she has become the opposite of what I originally envisioned her to be. It’s kinda weird but as I write more of her character into the story, I rarely think about it and I just go where the flow takes me. This is probably why she has become something I hardly recognize but at the same time, I find it exciting to write again.
As I read these words back to myself, I feel relieved to feel good about the writing process again. I might even test the waters a little more and write more poetry which I haven’t done in a long while. Don’t know if the world will be kind to me but I guess we’ll see.