Changes are afoot…

Forgive me dear readers (if any of you still read this, of course). I have been a very poor blogger of late (well, for the last 4 months) and whilst I’d like to list off a multitude of excuses why (some of them legit, I assure you), I just won’t. Suffice to say, change has made its way forcefully into my life once again and just how do I react to this change? Like a seasoned veteran, standing in the way of adversity with my head held high ready for whatever life may bring? Oh, noooooo haha not at all. Instead, I react like a newborn babe discovering that I can scream really really loudly if I do a certain thing with my throat and my mouth and my voice box.

If I could scream loudly, I would but my voice has never properly recovered from a very bad case of the flu I had a month or so back and well, yeah, that would suck so I won’t. Instead I take to the computer, turn it on, look over WordPress in one of the many tabs I have open in my browser and I cry my heart out in words. And sorry to say this but I think I’ll be doing this a lot more often.

So I’m not going to use this blog just for Star Wars. I am going to use this blog for anything I want or feel like saying, just like I am now. I don’t know why I was afraid to do that before. I guess I wanted to attract readers so badly, I was willing to silence that part of myself that desperately needed to be heard, even if I am only writing this for myself. I ask you, is that not what matters most?

I think so. In fact, I’m already feeling better just writing this little, wee bit of crap on my blog in the stratoshpere of “nobody really gives a damn” otherwise known as the internet. And somehow, I still feel better than I would have had I not blogged today.

So maybe tomorrow I’ll find out if I still have a day job… oh yeah, that is one of the things on my mind lately. Also, my mother who is disabled had a really bad fall this week and I was so worried about losing my job that I didn’t spend the day looking after her and dragged my ass to work instead. And now, I feel like the most horrible person on earth for doing that. BECAUSE IT’S NOT IMPORTANT. A job is just a job, family are family – family are all that matters and I acted like an idiot. And now I feel pretty bad again so I’m just going to like, stop now.

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Darth Maul and my absence from the fandom…

Hey everyone (assuming people still read this blog). I’ve been a long time away from posting here but it’s not without good reason. Almost a month or so ago something happened to me while I was playing SWTOR. Something inside me just broke. Ever since then, I haven’t been able to bring myself to play. I don’t know why it happened but it just did. So I took a breather from the fandom and today is the first time I’ve thought about creating more SW motion art in a while, which is why I haven’t posted here. I still update my IG but not as often as I used to. I am still on Pinterest and Twitter but in a reduced capacity. I’ve actually been pulled back into an old fandom of mine for the Karate Kid franchise and I’ve been hanging out mostly on Tumblr with other like-minded fans of the movie and the new YT Red show, Cobra Kai.

I can’t explain exactly how I feel about things. I am still trying to figure it all out but for now, I’ve decided to keep creating motion art because someone on IG sent me a really nice message and it’s helped to motivate me back into creating stuff.

So for anyone who still frequents this blog, this is for you, and thank-you for sticking with me, even though I’ve been a fairly crappy blogger of late.

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A cyclone came to say “hello” and this is what I learned in its passing …

Darksider Blog Banner Personal post so if you don’t want to read this, tune out now! On Tuesday a category 2 Cyclone hit my city. And it hit it harder than anything I can remember in the past. We’ve had earthquakes before, but the damage from this cyclone seemed to be a lot more prevalent. Power is out for more than 100,000 people. I was one of the lucky ones – my power went off for a few hours and was then restored. I thank god nobody was badly hurt or worse. Only one woman that I know of was pinned down inside her car because a tree fell on top of it. She had minor injuries. I am very relieved that this cyclone wasn’t bad enough to kill anyone – but it was close enough for me to really think about life and how much we really do take for granted. This is what I learned: Continue reading “A cyclone came to say “hello” and this is what I learned in its passing …”