Personal Post About Current Events

I thought it was the right time for me to blog about some things going on in the world, namely the racism, John Boyega and COVID-19. First, I think it’s important for me to say that I don’t like to blog about my personal life all that much. I used to do it way back when if the mood took me, but I prefer to keep my personal life offline.

I don’t have any issue with people blogging about their personal life. In fact, many people prefer the bloggers they follow to have a personal slant on life because, well, that’s what makes us unique. But I suffer from anxiety and depression, and unpleasant news triggers horrible anxiety. This is one reason I left Medium and why I unsubscribed from most of the blogs I followed there. Many of them focused primarily on negative issues which I needed to avoid.

This is also why I’ve been writing a lot. When I write, I don’t focus on negative things, and my anxiety levels stay where they should. Writing has always been therapeutic for me. And that’s really all I have to say about that.

So onto the COVID thing. I may have mentioned before that I keep an offline journal. This is where I blogged about COVID-19 and how it was affecting my life and the lives of people I know. Which is why I never blogged about it online.

Regarding the recent events, protests, racism, fascism etc, I try not to have an opinion either way. While the things I see happening sadden me and make me angry, I avoid any connection to these events for personal reasons. I have encountered racism several times in my life. Being a person of mixed heritage, racism happens everywhere, every single day, regardless of your colour. And it’s one of the ugliest things I’ve ever seen in this world. It makes the entire world seem ugly and brutish to me. And when you’ve seen it happen in your own backyard, with your own family members, it’s even uglier.

And as for John Boyega taking the stand against racism, that’s great that he has used his profile for something better than harassing Star Wars fans 😂. Good for him! It takes courage to look hatred in the eye. I am glad so many well-known celebrities are taking a stance.

Anyway, thanks for reading. I’ll be getting back to my normal dose of Star Wars content in my next post.

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Star Wars The Rise of Skywalker – Rey’s Ballad

I don’t know where this came from, I just felt inspired by this image which I edited using a tutorial from PixImperfect (which I’ll post later), but the words just came to me so here it is:

 

“I once looked to the stars
For someone to come for me
And through my journey I discovered
It was easier being nobody
But now I know that
Thousands have come before me
And I am lonely no more”…

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Song Writing Prompt 01 – Evanescence “My Tourniquet”

I am throwing myself entirely into the writing prompt process after having read the pros and cons of using prompts from various websites online. I think I’ll try this for a bit and see how things go before I decide it’s a waste of time. It’s always best to give something a good go before writing something off entirely, right? (excuse the pun).

When writing poetry, I’ve always found it easier to do when I’m writing about sadness, loss, grief, pain, heartache or love. I don’t know why this is, all I know is that most of my poetry is formed from both real and fictional experiences. Nobody can know which is which of course, because it’s so much more mysterious that way!

I also write my poetry from a free and unhindered place, which means it’s not formal or in any particular style. My poetry comes straight from within, not necessarily from my heart alone, but the process works for me best when I can feel the words forming. I also do not write a lot of poetry. I haven’t written in years, in fact. This is the first time I’ve actually wanted to write a poem in such a long time. I know that this is partially because I feel safe about writing here. I feel inspired by my readers and feel more confident to write freely.

I tried to focus on the following words in the song to write the poem below. I have very little knowledge of whether my words and the song lyrics connect. I simply used the song’s momentum and let my imagination do the rest.

If I say I see heaven in your eyes, will this lead to regret? Will you make me feel small?
Will you even be there, to catch me when I fall?

As wounds slowly become scars, this is how we live. When love ceases to exist, when there is nothing left to give

But I will still be here, I will never turn away. I’ll hold out my hand to you, through the storm, through the heartache, through the pain…

If I say I still see heaven, even as you walk away. Will you even remember me, or will you curse my name?

How I wish I were the one, strong enough to turn away. Now I am lost in the storm, crippled by the heartache, broken by the pain.

These are my words, let them shine…

My words engulf me in an endless feeling of surrender and release
As I weave my words into life, the veil is lifted and the light begins to shine
So proud am I to know that these words will forever be mine

My words are my shield, ready for the eyes of the world
Within them, I place my heart, and my soul so tread lightly, friend
For these words are my journey revealed to you from beginning to end

 

Not a Perfect Storm

Part of me wants to scream
But I never do
The urge slowly fades
Until it becomes
Yet another failed attempt
To win back that part of myself
That seems lost and forlorn
Scared and alone
Never to return
This is not a Perfect Storm