Carrying on from my writing journey posts, here is another snippet from one of my short stories called “The Devil’s Own”. The only thing I can remember from writing this story is that I was going through a ‘Charlie Hunnam’ phase on Tumblr (I know, ridiculous, my phases and fandoms seem to change often) and this was written with him in mind as the main character David. I dunno if that makes it harder or easier for the reader but it certainly helped me to visualise what I was trying to convey in my writing.
To set the scene, this short story was written in a fictional town in the USA and set in and around the same time as my other short “Angel in the Bathtub” so around the early 1800s.
I’ve been making things inbetween thinking about my fanfic, so far the thinking part is fine but it’s the writing down and fleshing out the ideas part that isn’t. So I’ve decided to keep things focused on Star Wars imagery to help me visualise what I need to write. The good news is I have a two week holiday coming up like most people do for the holidays, so I’ve decided that will be the best time for me to create the rest of the plot for my fanfic. I need to decide if the story is worth picking up from what I’ve already written OR if it will just be easier for me to write a brand new fic with maybe a few ideas taken from the original. Being a sporadic writer, it’s a bigger challenge for me to actually write. I struggle when I don’t feel inspired and even though many famous writers say that this is the most crucial time to write, I fail at doing this. If I don’t feel it, I can’t fake my way through creating a character or a scene. It’s not that I am not dedicated enough, it’s that I just can’t force creativity when there’s nothing to create with or from in the first place.
Have you ever just wandered about a book you once read, perhaps in your childhood, and you suddenly find yourself connecting with that author again? It’s quite a surreal experience. It’s happening to me right now – the book is The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier and I’ve decided that I am going to try and read as many of his books as I can for the 2019 new year Goodreads book challenge. I’m going to start now though because I promised myself I would try and read more (not as a new year’s resolution, just in general).
I spent the better part of the weekend sabotaging my own plans to expand on my star wars fanfic. I am actually pathetic 🤣😂 I cannot do anything other than laugh at my own silliness. I don’t know why writing on Wattpad has become this thing that is suddenly so imposing, so scary.
And I feel that if I force myself to write something I don’t feel, it’ll be terrible and nobody will ever read it.
Ho hum the work of a writer is never done!!