Well, 2019, what a year you were!

A lot of bloggers are doing a new year’s post, and I was inspired by MillennialLifeCrisis and her blog post, so here’s my retake for 2019.

One thing I would like to acknowledge first is that 2019 was fundamentally better than the shocking year I had before where I was facing the possibility of losing my job. I won’t linger on this topic for long suffice to say that 2019 was almost a complete reversal of 2018. And I am a lot happier as a result.

In terms of goal setting, I surpassed some and some of my goals kind of went wayward and were replaced by others. I guess that is how life works. Setting goals should allow for flexibility. You can never know what is around the corner and I learned that it’s good practice to remember that. Unforeseen life events may change your perspective on almost anything and everything! Life can hit really hard some days, and you have to be willing to roll with those punches and come out the better for it – you have to at least try. You can never predict what will happen in the days to come and you’ll be a lot happier without worrying about things you cannot control (like your job security, to a degree).

So this year, in light of what I’ve achieved and done in the past year, I only have one goal and that is to move out of the 9 – 5 employment model and into a 100 per cent Work From Home existence. I am already working from home three days out of the five with it looking to increase to four this year. The beautiful thing about this is that I have a lot more time to work on what I actually want to do so I can leave my current job. That is the only goal I have set myself this year and it’s a big one. So I am not going to set myself any others until I’ve done all I can to achieve this one.

I would also finally like to mention that I have met and made friends with some very awesome and talented people this year here on WordPress and in other social media circles and I am so grateful for their kindness, wisdom and support. I am not a very open person by nature (once you get to really know me) so to connect with these amazing people is just incredible.

I wish you all the best for 2020 my friends and thank you all again ❤️💙💜

When you’re called a “racist” on social media…

Today after a lovely and restful sleep, I went on social media and was bombarded by posts all about John Boyega. For some reason, John has come under attack from some fans for voicing his opinion about Rey’s relationship with Finn and Kylo Ren/Ben Solo in The Rise of Skywalker. If I haven’t made it clear before, I will now – I have never liked John Boyega. I can’t explain it in any way that would make much sense but I can guarantee you now that it has NOTHING to do with the colour of his skin.

I am a little bit rattled because I’ve never been called a racist before. Being of mixed blood myself, I find it hilarious that anyone would think I’m racist just because I said I don’t like John Boyega OR the character that he plays in the sequel trilogy. It’s like, sorry but first of all, who do you think you are making comments like this about someone you don’t even know? And secondly, what does not liking someone have to do with the colour of their skin? I like Pedro Pascal and he’s of Latino heritage. My favourite artist of all time was Prince, also of mixed blood like myself. I like Barack Obama and Denzel Washington. The list goes on. How can I be a racist if I respect and love people who have darker skin than I do?

It’s just ridiculous what people do on social media. It makes me shake my head and feel sorry for them because they have nothing better to do than pass judgement and make criticisms that are cruel and mean-spirited.

So back to the John Boyega thing. I actually discussed the entire meltdown between John and the Star Wars fans on Dork Side of the Force. It hasn’t been edited yet so it won’t be up on the site for a bit but when it is, you can support me by visiting their blog and reading all about it (if you feel like it, of course).

I think I’ll go and write a positive and lovely New Year’s post because it is already 2020 in my country! Let all the most glorious things that can happen to you happen to you this year!

Much love

J.

 

The State of the Star Wars fandom 2019

/rant on

I’ve seen a lot of stuff that I don’t agree with on social media lately, more so than usual and I just can’t let it slide. I don’t begrudge a person their own choices and what they do or don’t support / ship or otherwise in any fandom, but it annoys me when people start being mean and ugly about it.

I know people get angry because let’s face it, Star Wars is serious business to a lot of people, including myself, but I didn’t sign up for pettiness or hate or flame-wars or trolling. And yes, you can block people, but you can’t block an entire fandom, and that’s pretty much how things are right now.

As an example, the hate going around about John Boyega. Here’s a little tidbit, I don’t actually like John Boyega all that much, and I’ve never liked Finn – yes, it’s true! But the stuff people are saying about him because he decided to take a stand and voice his true feelings about The Last Jedi is just wrong. You don’t get to stan someone one day and then rip them apart on social media the next just because they disagree with your views on Star Wars. He’s allowed to say what he wants, just as you are but hate him because he did? Wow, such a fickle bunch you are.

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Just remember that being famous doesn’t make you any less human. When a celebrity looks in the mirror, they see the same thing you do, a person, a human being, someone with feelings and thoughts all their own. How about you start acting like a decent human being who also has feelings and ideas and treat him and anyone else the same way you would want to be treated yourself! Also, what would your parents say about your hatred and vitriol? Nothing good, I expect.

I know my father would be turning in his grave right about now at all the bullshit that goes on in the Star Wars fandom today. The landscape has changed with social media and new technology and all that but seriously, when and why did people forget to be nice?

You guys hurt me, you really, really do.

/rant off

Blog Cleanup – looking forward to 2020!

So I’ve been thinking about blogging, in general, a fair bit and I’ve decided that I will be reverting back to blogging about life on this blog *like I used to way back when*. I actually stopped doing that because of work-related issues arising from my personal blog posts, but I’ve since decided that none of that is essential now. I think it’s more important for me to continue writing about life regularly rather than keep it all in. I also don’t really have time to dedicate to another blog. Now that my writing and reviewing is all separate and located on my other website, I can use this one to talk about Star Wars and other stuff maybe not necessarily relating to Star Wars.

Next week is a big week – we all know what next week is right? So, I’ll definitely be blogging about my experience once I’ve seen The Rise of Skywalker. I anticipate I’ll have a lot to say.

To any of my new followers, if you are following me solely for book reviewing, writing and related topics, please follow my other blog The Broken Quill instead. Feel free to unfollow me here, it’s all good 🙂

 

Yesterday, I had a star wars micro meltdown

I don’t know if it was just the overwhelming day I had with all the star wars stuff and my over-excitement that caused it but I ended up on my bed after work crying uncontrollably. Today I am not at work, as you can probably guess. So the whole deal with star wars (if you haven’t already read about this) is my dad got me into star wars when I was a kid and I have never looked back. It was one of his passions and then became mine. So my link to the whole skywalker saga is a direct link to my dad. In my head, that is how I see it and in my heart, how I feel about it. So to admit that the whole saga is now coming to an end was a little too much for me, I think.

Even writing this I feel sad and I have tears. Yep, a grown woman crying about a fictional universe – pretty pathetic, right? I know there are other reasons which I’ll blog about on my writing blog becuase it relates directly to that. But I feel very alone and lost right now. And I miss my dad something awful…

Some blog upkeeping for Darksider Confessions

Today I decided that I will be moving the topic of writing and all that entails to a new blog. It’s still with wordpress but I will be separating my writing posts from everything else I do here. Darkside Creative will still be home to all my other creative endeavours such as graphic design, Adobe, and of course, everything relating to Star Wars.

I just feel that this blog really has grown into something more than I expected and in doing so, it has moved slowly away from my first passion which is writing. I haven’t been able to do much with my writing here because I wanted this space to house my Star Wars experiences and everything I do with art. I just don’t think writing has a place here any more.

So if you wish to follow my writing blog, you can do so here – www.thebrokenquill.com.

That’s all I really have to say about that. I’ll understand if you unfollow me.

I have a whole heap of Star Wars edits and graphics to post which I’ll do bit by bit starting tomorrow.

Do you have a personal mantra that you try to follow?

I blogged about having a personal “mantra” last month as part of a discussion I was actually having with myself on what I want to do and where I want to go in my life.

No joke, those questions are probably some of the hardest questions I’ve ever had to answer, and I don’t think I’ve been able to answer them yet – I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to really. I have a rough idea of what I want to do, but it hasn’t been an easy road, and it’ll only get more challenging before I’m in a place where I will feel good about myself.

As I was reading, I came across the above phrase, which was actually pretty close to what I think I was trying to express. Although, if you had asked me that same question six years ago, I would have had a very different answer.

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Is’nt it funny how time can change your entire perspective on life and even your own opinion of yourself and your values. I know mine have taken a drastic turn. I am usually the type of person that had never doubted where I was going or what I was going to do when I got there. Today, I am not as confident of either of those things.

What about you? Have you ever had an experience in your life so profound that it changed your outlook or your views on life entirely? I suppose that sounds kind of dramatic, but it really isn’t. I don’t believe you can really go through life without hitting significant obstacles in the road. Have you ever had one of these and if so, what did you do to get over that obstacle? Do you live by a specific “code” or mantra or something similar that you aspire to?

I’ve been thinking about this website and the reason I started it in the first place. And I see this website as a canvas of sorts, an artwork that is ever-changing and evolving as I do. That said, there is a part of me that is holding onto the writer within, the teenager that wrote and wrote until her hand went numb, the freelance journalist that never thought she could get a byline and that person is waiting for a chance to shine again.

So along with my other creative endeavours, I want to write more. I need to feed that monster clawing under my skin.