I haven’t posted about work because I am becoming a little paranoid that someone might read what I’m writing. So I’ve been keeping things to myself and I don’t like it. I actually think the stress of it all has given me more migraines lately.
We were given our new teamwork allocation list. I have been put on Outage Management twice, and ticket allocation. These tasks are a big responsibility, you need to manage any major outage that may occur during your shift – for the entire residential sector. Would you allocate this task to someone deemed even remotely incompetent? Lol… you can see why I find this whole process has been a fucking joke.
I am now being told that I am being put back into the team I was originally in… all the self doubt that I had, all the tears I cried over feeling like I didn’t measure up… all the stress and migraines … for what?
This company is horrible and they don’t care about their employees one bit 😡
And as if my week couldn’t get worse, I found out I didn’t get the job I was trying to get but I impressed them enough to keep my name on a list should they be looking for people in the future… if I was that impressive, why didn’t I get the job? You know?
I want this year to just end…
I’ve had to be dishonest this week in pursuit of a better future. What price are you willing to pay for yours? I don’t feel good about it at all, and if it doesn’t go well, I would have done it all for nothing.
I don’t like this. But I’m committed now so I have to see it through whatever the outcome.