I haven’t written anything in the last few days and I have been painfully aware of this fact. But each and every time I attempt to write something, it just doesn’t seem like the right place for me to express myself and I cease up and end up doing nothing at all. This blog is the SWTOR/Star Wars website I’ve always wanted but I can’t use it when I feel the need to and I have so many thoughts I have to work through.To put a star wars spin on things, just like Rey and Kylo Ren, I need “Balance” in my (writing) life so I can stop feeling frustrated at myself and at certain aspects of my life in general.
On the writing side of things, I’ve started writing poetry again and I have revisited some of the short stories I have been writing on and off for the past six years. Some are even older than that. It’s funny reading over some of these short stories and poems. I often wonder about the inspiration I’ve used over the years to tell these stories and write these poems. I feel like I may have squandered some of that inspiration away carelessly and now I am being punished for wasting it.
Writing, for me anyway, is a living thing. Just like any living thing, it thrives with attention, care and nurturing and will wither away and eventually die without these things. For now, I am somewhere in-between; far enough away from withering and dying not to worry but still close enough to feel like I’m screwing things up.
I need someone to show me my place in all this… I need help.
Readers, if there are any of you out there, what would you suggest? Should I start another (side) blog to this one? Comments as always, are welcome.